Darla!

Category: what’s inside my head

  • about the flat brown shoes

    I’ve had this pair of shoes for months. I know they’re not that pretty (in fact, Ian once called them ‘old lady’s shoes’), but I love them. I love them very much that I used them almost every day. Even when they started to show some signs that they would be broken at any time, I still kept using them. I forced them until they finally gave up. Today, they’re really torn apart.

    Someone asked me why I didn’t try to fix them. Well, it’s too late, isn’t it? I mean, look at them. There’s nothing I can do. Even if tried, they wouldn’t last any longer. Maybe it’s best to just put them off.

    Those flat brown shoes will always be in my heart, even though I already bought a new pair. Because I love them. Since the beginning to the very end.

    Sincerely,
    Putdar.

  • ciwidey and a bathtub full of hot water

    Last weekend, I went to Ciwidey with my classmates (which means that Mr Boyfriend went too). We stayed in two cottages with a spring water pool in front of them. We’re still having the wet season here in Bandung, but luckily, it was sunny during the two days we stayed there. It was sunny but Ciwidey was still very cold, especially in the night. But at least the water was hot. I spent half an hour in the bathtub, enjoying the warmth whilst thinking about a lot of things.

    I found it quite funny that I didn’t really enjoy the holiday, except for the hot water. It was fun, really. But somehow I didn’t want to stay any longer there. Something ruined the fun I should’ve been having there.

    It was sunny but my mind was cloudy.

    Sincerely,
    Putdar.

  • almost

    It just crossed my mind tonight while talking to a friend via YM. ‘Almost’ sometimes hurts badly. Like when you get an 89 points for a B, when all you need is just one more point to get an A. You almost get an A, but you don’t. It hurts way more than getting a C straightforwardly.

    Sincerely,
    Putdar.

  • “i am not pretty. i am not beautiful.”

    Throughout these years, I have come to be used to say thank you and not let it go inside my head whenever someone says that I’m pretty. Because I know that I’m not that pretty. And sometimes it’s hard to decide whether they really mean to compliment me or if they’re just being sarcastic.

    But when it comes to you, when you’re the one who says that I’m beautiful, I fall for it. I blush. I can’t say thank you and walk away like I usually do. It goes straight into my head and creates a smile on my face.

    You might not believe it, but it gives me an additional reason to wake up in the morning and smile foolishly at the mirror. Really. You really did this to me.

    And you know what? I love you. I really do.

    Sincerely,
    Putdar.

  • i love hilary duff

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    I first saw Hilary Duff in Lizzie McGuire when I was in junior high school. I instantly fell in love with the show because it really fit my life back then. Hilary Duff was still a teenager with small boobs and cute fringe. She was my first Hollywood girl crush. Her album, Metamorphosis, was the very first cassette I bought. She was sixteen and I was twelve.

    Eight years since then, she is married and just gave birth to her first son. Oh how time flies by. Congratulations, Hilary! I’m sure you’re gonna be a great mum. I will always be your hard fan. 🙂

    Sincerely,
    Putdar.