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Category: what’s inside my head

  • Someday

    I’ve been holding on to this word, someday, so hard that my knuckles start to get numb.

    There are only seven days in a week—and someday isn’t one of them.
    (Unknown)

    Someday. That’s a dangerous word. It’s really just a code for ‘never’.
    (Knight and Day)

    Someday I will understand
    In God’s whole plan
    And what he’s done to me
    (Britney Spears)

    Or not.

  • used to

    Funny how someone who once was your best friend, the one who knew you the most, now becomes a total stranger.

    He used to understand your thoughts even when you didn’t say them out loud, but now he can’t even understand no matter how hard you try to explain.

    He used to make your day a little bit brighter, even the gloomiest one, but now he makes your life miserable.

    He used to want to talk to you all day long, but now he can’t even call you on the phone to try to fix things that are too broken to be fixed.

    He used to text you sweet words, called you ‘sweetheart’, but now he texts you sarcasms and calls you ‘GIRL’ (caps lock on).

    What you need to know is:
    Things happen for a reason.

    If one bad breakup can change him that much, imagine how much he could change when he has to face bigger problems.

    Maybe, just maybe, it’s God’s way to show you the real him.

  • student community service: day 7

    Good morning from Sindangmekar! Sorry for the lack of posts here lately. I have yet to get a proper internet connection on my laptop. I’m currently writing on the Blogger app for Android. This app sucks at managing pictures, so this post doesn’t have any images like the rest of my blog.

    The purpose of this post is actually to tell you that I’m still alive! Haha. I already feel homesick since two days ago, but I’m trying to deal with it. P said it might be because I still don’t have anything to do, so this morning I did the chores from 4.30 am to 6.45 nonstop. It helped a lot. I feel a little bit better now 🙂

    Still 33 days to go, guys. Wish me luck with this homesickness. Ugh!

  • it’s just a thought, only a thought

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    Somebody once said that I lacked of determination. Maybe they were right. Maybe I actually do lack of determination. Or maybe I’m just lazy. I don’t know. All I know, I should be packing for the student community service. On Thursday, I’ll leave to stay in a place I don’t quite know for 40 days and yet here I am, 15 minutes to midnight, still sitting in front of my laptop.

    Maybe I’m lazy. Or maybe I just don’t want to leave the comfort of the place I’ve known all my life. Or maybe it’s the fact that I have never been away from my family for more than 10 days. Well either way I’m doomed. I still need to pack my stuffs.

    Will I get the chance and a good internet connection to keep blogging during the service? I don’t know. Let’s just hope for the best of everything.

  • bad people

    I am Azula of the Fire Nation, a dragon of the west, the rightful lord of these four nations, trueborn daughter of Fire Lord Ozai. And hair grows back.
    {via}

    Has it ever crossed your mind that bad people actually have good intentions deep inside their hearts? Like when Azula fights like crazy, she just wants to fulfill her father’s grandfather’s dreams and inherit the throne as she has been promised all these times. Like when Cinderella’s step sisters try to fit their feet in the shoe, they just want to be princesses and marry the prince (oh isn’t it every girl’s dream?). And Tris (in Nick and Norah’s Infinite Playlist) really loves Nick; she’s just gone wrong and treated Nick badly. And many more examples.

    Everybody wants to be loved. Everybody has dreams. But some of them take the wrong way to make the dreams come true.

    It’s just a thought, though. Only a thought.