Darla!

Category: what’s inside my head

  • Moral Values

    Since I have taught all the materials for the semester but we still got plenty of times before the exams week, we had movie screening recently. The movie I chose was Mean Girls, because I think Mean Girls is funny yet full of lessons that the students can learn about bullying. After watching it, I asked my students to write down the moral values that they could get from the movie. Most of them listed down things like responsibility and “You will not be happy by ruining someone’s life.”

    Their responses for the movie got me thinking about a lot of things. “You will not be happy by ruining someone’s life.” It made me think about karma. Do you believe in karma? In some ways, I do believe in it; in the other ways, I don’t. Just think about: if karma does exist, the world would be one big circle of hell.

    Suppose A hurts B in one way or another. Karma takes her role in a form of someone, let’s just call that someone as Z. Z hurts A. Then karma takes her role again in a form of someone else we call X. X hurts Z. And so on and so forth until it becomes a sick cycle carousel.

    There are times when it crosses my mind how easy it is to try and break someone’s heart because they’ve hurt me or talked bad about me behind my back. But is it worth it? Will it make me happy? Will it make me genuinely happy? Wouldn’t it be easier to just forgive and let go? Isn’t my life already perfect now?

    I should think about it whenever I feel that the world is unfair just because someone is talking bad about me. Hating is exhausting, ya know. How much time do you waste everyday just to think about someone who is not worth thinking?

    Stop it. Just stop it.


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  • I Need to Sleep

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    I pulled an all nighter the night before my student teaching examination. I’m one badass procrastinator who managed to pull the preparations for the exam until only a few hours before the exam actually started. I ended up getting only two hours of sleep. However, there’s a price I have to pay for that decision. My sleeping schedule is screwed up now. In the next 10 minutes, I’ll be trying to fall asleep. Though I’m going to wake up in less than 3 hours because tonight is London derby time (The Blues versus Spurs).

    But srsly, I need to sleep.

  • With or Without Makeup?

    Every morning (except when I don’t feel like it), I take my time to put on some makeup after taking a bath. My makeup routine includes acne gel, sunblock cream, BB cream, face powder, eyeliner, blush on, and (sometimes) chapstick. You can see that the makeup I wear doesn’t really make any significant differences to my face. I don’t wear makeup to be prettier or something; I just do it for fun. To me, it’s as fun as reading John Green’s books or watching Fox Crime. It’s not an obligation for me to put on makeup before leaving the house; I can go out without it. Everybody has different reasons and I don’t have any reason except for having fun.

    How about you? Can you leave your house without makeup?

  • How to Deal with Haters

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    You may talk bad about me, but NEVER talk bad about elephants. They never forget. (source)

    No matter how kind you are as a person, there will always be somebody who hates you. Haters are everywhere and they will always try to let you down. They say nasty things about you, talk about you behind your back, laugh at your failure, and look down at your success. There seems to be nothing that can stop them trying to bring you down.
    Nobody is perfect anyway. Some of the bad things they say about you may actually be correct. But you could always look at the brightside. Look around you and see those people who love you despite all your flaws. Now, instead of letting what the haters say go into your head, why don’t you just focus on those who love you? Instead of wasting your energy giving a damn about those haters, why don’t you just spend it on those who actually care about you?
    Like what a lot of people (including A) say, the best revenge is being happy. There’s nothing that can bring them down except by showing them that you are happy and that they don’t matter at all.

  • Chosen

    “It wouldn’t change a thing.”

    “Well, it did change me.”

    “You didn’t change.”

    “My mind did.”

    There was one time, November 2011, when I felt like I was on the edge of an ultimate break down. I decided, then, to board a train to Jakarta all by myself. Perhaps running away is the only thing I’m good at. This is perhaps what I’m doing right now: running away. Maybe someday I would finally have the guts to tell you the reasons why I am who I am today. But as for now, let me tell you this instead:

    Yesterday, I got super angry at somebody’s tweet. They clearly talked about me, as it had my nick name in it, and it was a bad talk. I got super angry, but I didn’t rant back in Twitter. Instead, I texted A. I let it out on him in ALL CAPS. I told him that if I would, I could make their life more miserable.

    “There’s something you could do to make them feel worthless: be happy.”

    “I’ve chosen you.”

    “Everybody knows that I’ve chosen you.”

    Then I told myself, “I am happy. I am loved. I am chosen.”

    Just right then, I’m good again.

    Me and My Darling A:
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    Hater:
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