Darla!

Category: life as i know it

  • my dad

    When I was little, Dad used to take me on trips to various places. He always had time for his family. He went to work at 7 am and came home at 4 pm. Sometimes he worked overtime, but he was always home on weekends. Weekends were our family time.

    My 1st birthday

    At Ciwidey when I was 6

    At Sabuga when I was 8

    When I was 9, my little sister was born. Dad got a promotion and he became busier since then. He goes to work at 6 am and comes home late at night, sometimes around midnight. And what’s worse is that he also works on weekends. We never have the time to go on trips anymore. My poor little sister never gets the chance to go to the places where Dad took me years ago. He’s very busy. Sometimes he takes his works home, like last night.

    Last night

    Growing up with a busy parent is hard. It would be much harder if Mum was busy too, but thankfully, my mum is a full time stay-at-home-mum. Everytime I come home, Mum is always there to greet me. We’re not really close, but she’s always there. I can’t imagine what I would become if she was busy too.

    That is why I want to be a housewife after I get married. I want to watch my kids grow up. I don’t want to miss any moment. I looked at Dad’s face this morning and I realised how old he had become. Maybe Dad looked at me too and realised how much I’d grown up. It’s sad to see how much we’ve missed. He didn’t attend all my graduation days through my school years. On my 19th birthday, he texted me to say happy birthday because he had left for work before I even woke up.

    I’m not blaming him. He’s busy because he has a family to feed. He is wonderful. He never complains even a single sigh. I love him with all my heart, even though I never hug nor kiss him. Sometimes I cry before I sleep, thinking of how much he has given me.

    Dad, I know I never show it, but please keep in mind that I love you. Very much. Please don’t push yourself too hard. Take a rest. Take a deep breath every now and then. When you’re ill, please take the medicine and stop being so stubborn. Listen to what Mum says, cause all she wants is for you to be okay. We love you. We really, really love you.

    Sincerely,
    Putdar.

  • oh, hello there, august!

    Whoa! I miss you so much, little blog! I’ve been busy, busy, busy lately. Here are what I’ve been up to since Monday:

    Verb patterns

    Exploring Prose’s essays

    Being a mentor in Pesantren Kilat (some kind of Islamic summer school)

    I’m fasting and I’ve got so much to do. Please wish me luck, guys! 🙂

    Sincerely,
    Putdar.

  • i’m gonna make you fall in love with me

    Again.

    And this time, it will be right. Without any sorry. Without any pity. Just love.

    I’m gonna make it real this time.

    Sincerely,
    Putdar.

  • summer afternoon: a mixtape by putdar

    Hi! Sorry for the lack of new posts. There was a huge thing happened to my life yesterday. It might bring some big changes in my life, and it might affect this blog, too. So, I guess I’m taking a break for a few days from the blogosphere. I’ll still be available on other social media, though. You could also send me an email if you want. And before I go, here’s a mixtape I made a few days ago to accompany you while I’m away. I hope I could be back as soon as possible. See you! 🙂

    Click here to download

    Sincerely,
    Putdar.

    PS. If you like the songs, please buy them from the original artists 😉


    PPS. The link only works for two weeks from now.

  • i feel like i’m (almost) on top of the world

    In four months, I will be 20. In the whole 19 years and 8 months, I have never traveled without my family too far from home, aside some study tour and Scrabble-thingy. I have never spent holiday with my friends in a far away place. Parents usually don’t allow me. That is why, my friend, I’m so GLAD that they allow me to go to Jakarta Fair with my new friends from BlowUP! I guess growing up and getting older ain’t that bad, eh? Hehehehe… 😉

    I’m praying that all the plans I have for the remaining 3 days in June and the whole month of July can go well. Amen.

    Oh and did I mention that I am so GLAD? 🙂

    Sincerely,
    Putdar.

    PS. I still have one spot for the sponsorship of July. Visit this for details 😉