Quarter Life Crisis is Real, and It’s an Absolute Bitch

Whether I read an amusing article or a serious one about quarter life crisis signs, there’s only one conclusion: I am currently in the middle of my quarter life crisis. I’ve found that quarter life crisis is real, and yes, it’s a bitch.

I’ve been feeling like I’m dragging my feet every single day; forcing myself to get up and go to work. At one point, I couldn’t even talk to anyone without getting anxiety. This had been going for weeks before I finally realised that I’m turning 25 in less than a month. At first I thought perhaps I was having a mental breakdown or I was depressed, but now I’m quite sure that this is what they call quarter life crisis.

Among all the signs that I’m going through right now are:

• I’m having trouble falling asleep at night, but all I want is to nap all day. Which is almost impossible, because work (duh!)
• I’ve always been a socially awkward person and it’s always hard for me to meet new people, but the awkwardness has increased to anxiety. And not only to new people but also to friends.
• Since college, I had always known that 8-to-4 jobs weren’t for me and that’s why I started a career as a private English tutor, but I’ve become to really hate my job and I’d give anything to have an 8-to-4 job and to be able to be home before 9pm.

Part of me wants to make a huge change like start having babies or move back to Bandung City, but another part of me wants to stay and not make life-changing decisions during this phase. I’m really confused right now because I honestly don’t know what to do.

Help! (I guess?)