Darla!

Category: what’s inside my head

  • “i have died everyday waiting for you.”

    That one line just kills me. The next one (“Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you for a thousand years; I’ll love you for a thousand more.”) sends me right to a place in between heaven and hell. It’s been playing on repeat for days now, the only song in my playlist. Kinda reminds me of a story about a girl who keeps waiting for her lover and keeps loving him throughout these years. This song plus the thought of her have been messing with my head. I can’t (or maybe I can?) imagine how broken her heart would be if she lost him.

    On the sidenote, I love these official lyric videos that they make. Brilliant idea. I have seen fan-made lyric videos on YouTube, and now they create the official ones. I love it.

  • i’m lovin’ it

    I had my favourite dessert with my favourite person this afternoon. He is now en route to his hometown and he’ll stay there for over a week. I told him I wouldn’t miss him; truth is… I’ve already missed him the second we parted ways.
    But surely one week is not very long, is it?

  • it was just a dream

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    For the past few days, I’ve been having these dreams. I can’t say that they’re all bad dreams, but they surely made me feel a little bit hollow. I keep telling myself that they were all just dreams; that I shouldn’t let them rule my head. But it’s hard, you know. They have affected my thoughts these days. I hope tonight I could get a better dream. One about London, maybe?

  • “Call upon Me; and I will answer you.”

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    I don’t quite remember when was the first time I slipped that wish into my prayer every night. That one little wish of “Dear Lord, please give it to me.” Because I do want it to be mine and mine only. When you’ve spent every night and day just thinking about it and how wonderful it would be if it were yours, and you have tried so hard to get it, the only thing that’s left to do is to pray. And so I do pray.

    Or did. Because as the days go by, I’ve found myself staring at the same empty picture frames. And now that one little wish slowly changes into “Dear Lord, should I never get it, please ease the pain as I let it go.” Because even if God hasn’t spoken just yet, I already know the answer. From the very start.

    So forgive me, my Lord, for I have wanted what I shouldn’t.

    (Title is from The Holy Quran 40:60)

  • dream a little dream of me.

    Dear friends,
    I’m sorry that lately my writings have been a little bit negative. I hope I can make up with you by posting these pretty pictures of five beautiful cities I really want to visit someday. I need to remind myself that life is actually beautiful, the world is actually very big and I have only visited only a small part of it. This sadness is nothing compared to the happiness that I could get from the whole world. Someday I’m going places and I’ll see that everything is, in fact, going to be okay.

    Berlin. {source}

    Cape Town. {source}

    Amsterdam. {source}

    Ottawa. {source}

    London. {source}

    Sincerely,
    Putdar.