Darla!

Category: life as i know it

  • Future

    You know what I hate about being in early 20s? Those talks about future, i.e. job and marriage. It wasn’t until I turned 21 that I realised how I had wasted my life when I was still a teenager. I should’ve done better than this. I regret a lot of things, including my university and major choice. I shouldn’t have taken education major as I don’t really want to be a teacher. Now I want to be an editor in a magazine, whilst my parents still want me to be a teacher. The conversations about job and career aren’t going anywhere with them and it drives me crazy.

    And marriage. MARRIAGE! Boy am I still 21. I don’t understand those people (non family) who keep talking about how and why I should get married soon. It’s not like I don’t want to get married asap, but enough with the talking already! Might as well just wait for the good news and mind your own business. Why don’t you get married soon? And why is it your business when my own parents haven’t even mentioned it?

    Now getting back to the first topic, I need your help:
    In your opinion, what are the reasons why teaching is awesome? Why do you think I should be a teacher?

  • What’s Inside My Bag

    You guys, I’m bored. My team is currently one score behind in the big match versus Manchester United. They’re playing quite monotonously, so I decided to give you a scope about what’s inside my bag. (I know, I know. I made that post before. But it’s a different bag with different stuffs inside, so I guess it’s okay if I do it again, no?)

    Besides the difference in the quality of the pictures, this post and that post also differ in the type of bag and what’s inside them. Time flies. When I posted the old WIMB post, I was still in my second year of college. I still carried textbooks everywhere. Now that I’m in my final year and am currently student teaching in a high school, I don’t carry textbooks anymore. Instead, I carry these:

    1. An ASUS U24E. Bigger than my previous laptop, yet lighter. Also, it’s bold red.
    2. A Blue Cross wallet. I’m very sad to say that my old black Milk Teddy wallet was lost (again) but this time, it never came back to me.
    3. A Minnie Mouse notebook. I don’t carry binder notebook anymore.
    4. Two bank account books. I have two bank accounts now and I carry these books everywhere without any specific reason.
    5. A stationery case.

    6. The Three Rey back pack. Which is super comfy!
    7. A bone-shaped eyeglasses case. I still have it 🙂
    8. Make up (sunblock, Wardah face powder, Maybelline lipbalm, and Wardah brown eyeliner pencil)
    9. Miss Molly. Just kidding! (She’s too heavy to be carried around)

    10. My students’ homework
    11. English module

    12. A plastic bag. You never know when you will need one.
    13. Power terminal. Because I’m a power hunter.
    14. Laptop and phone chargers. As said above, I’m a power hunter.
    15. A white Sony Ericsson Xperia X8 with Mentari SIM card (for making calls and texting)
    16. A black Sony Xperia Miro with Axis SIM card (for catching up with several social networking sites and WhatsApp-ing with my darling A)

    Sixteen boring items that I carry around everyday in my boring life. Hope it doesn’t bore you, though. Now, back to the boring game…

    PS. By the time I published this post, both my team and Manchester United already scored two goals.

  • And it’s perfectly fine.

    Life’s been quite confusing lately, well at least at this part of the world where I’m living in. I’ve been torn in between “Oh I need to hold his hands right now!” and “His work shouldn’t be interrupted by my demanding voice at all.” Surely we all want to be there whenever our loved ones are in a stressful condition, but there are also times that it’s best if we just leave them alone and give them some space, some room to breathe. Or move. Or work, come to think of that. I’ve never been that kind of girl who can be really reasonable, understanding, and supportive to her boyfriend, but of course I should try to be. I have to.

    Because whatever it is he’s going through right now, the result may not be for his own only. It may be for mine too.

  • Well hello there, 2013!

    2012 was quite a roller coaster ride for me personally. The apocalypse might have been canceled (LOL yeah…) but, as Diana once said, the world really ended at 2012 for me. I hit my low in the middle of May, got back on my feet again in June, only to hit a new low in September. Things changed at that moment, and I’m not sure if I will ever be whole again.

    One of the things that changed in September is how I see the noun ‘life’. I’ve become even more pessimistic than I had ever been all my life. So, I don’t expect anything in 2013 other than to start (and finish) my final paper and get my bachelor degree in December.

    Anyhow, I spent the new year’s eve with my amazing boyfriend (did I just use the word ‘amazing’ to describe him?) and four friends. We cooked spaghetti and then went to Pasupati highway in the middle of the night to see the firework party. At 2am we came back to Arif’s place and watch Shutter, but didn’t finish it because we passed out one by one.

    It was a one night well spent 🙂

    Happy new year from the boy and me!

  • A Confession.

    I feel like I’m starting to lose myself.

    These things I’m on: college, friendship, or even just life in general; I feel like they’re all tumbling down. I can’t keep my head on every subject I’m taking this semester. I’m drifting away from all of my friends (I haven’t even met Mijra for weeks. Sorry, dude…) And I’m slowly yet surely taking myself away from the world. I’d prefer lying down doing nothing. I have zero motivation in studying. I don’t want to be a teacher anymore. I feel like this is the lowest point of my life so far.

    I don’t know me anymore.